When you take it for granted (26/08/2016)

Wish I could express about my current feelings, but since it's getting late now (2.43am), I can't afford to lose more sleeping time now when I can sleep. To summarize it, I'm pretty sad today. I hardly get sad over friendship. The last I remembered was a few years back when I started to feel a great distance between myself and a close friend. We were so close, until one point I almost shared to her all of my problems, be they family or relationship problems. For me to share until that extend, you must be someone whom I really, really trust. Sadly? We hardly talk anymore. There was one period of time where I was...

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What was it? (04/04/2016)

Hey it's me again. It's 2:55 a.m. I can't sleep. I'm not sure if this is caused by the weather or the caffeine or just me over-thinking. First of all the weather is definitely the killer. Everyone in my house knows that whoever has the fan on at speed 3 and above would get killed (lol just a mom thing). Right now I have it at speed 4 and I am friggin' sweating God help meeeeeee.. Second of all I was out in the evening with mom and before we headed home, we had coffee at her favourite restaurant. There it explains my insomnia but...

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Just after Dawn (02/04/2016)

Good morning, it is 6:40 am according to my pc time. I woke up an hour ago and stayed in bed for awhile, and then I got up to pee and here I am sitting in front of my desktop in the dark, with only a dim light from the screen of my desktop and the light of my phone on the keyboard. Before the pee, I took a moment of my half asleep conscious to just stare into the darkness. Since my door knob never worked, my room door is never locked, so I have gotten used to my door always being pushed open by the wind and usually really annoys me. Well it was half open just now and I could have a little view of the hallway. It was so...

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Copied from Cheryl Lee Xin Yi ( 李欣怡 ) (18/03/2016)

17-3 《#欣想事成》 《需要被需要》你有没有过很不确定一个人到底爱不爱自己的感觉？或许那时候你们已经在一起，可是却觉得若即若离，你们之间有什么问题你说不上来，你也确定不是有第三者，可是他就是有一种很不确切的感觉。这种感觉叫：他不需要你。很恐怖对不对。这种情况比较常出现在男生的身上。饿了就一起去吃饭，你没时间？啊那没关系我一个人也ok。有好看的电影上映了，你有事今天不能去？好那我一个人去看吧！残忍一点来说，他有没有你，日子都是一样过。好，或许会有一点不一样，就是多一个人在身边。就像搭巴士，你上车后，车里面有一个人和两个人的分别其实不大，就是多了一个人而已，这样。我有位朋友曾经和我分享过这样的感受，她觉得自己在男朋友心中没有重量，每次希望可以两个人出去走走，结果男友一定会叫一堆朋友随行，每当她想为对方做些什么，男朋友都会觉得不用麻烦你我自己来就好。男人可能会觉得冤枉，我就是独立，我就是不希望妳辛苦，怎么又怪到我头上来了呢？很多时候，爱情经营的不是“我为你好”，这个你的爸妈已经灌输你二三十年了，不用麻烦你。爱情该营造的是：我需要你。让一个人更加坚强，是因为他知道有人需要他的肩膀；让一个人不再夜归，是因为他知道有人需要他说晚安。这就是为什么爱情会让我们变更好的人。可是，也有很多人把“我需要你”要得过火了，变成“我依赖你”，这又是另外一个故事了。让对方感觉被需要，是爱情的基本礼貌。至于如何让对方以礼相待……让我用一个最old school的说法：你知道为什么恋爱要用谈的吗？因为一切都必须好好说出口。 - Cheryl...

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败坏虚伪 (21/01/2016)

“假如人类脱去外壳外貌，你还会选择和我在一起吗？” 外貌显然能让人判定你的好坏。 那么为了生存在这残酷现实的世界，就得打扮自己，融入社会。 从此比较的不再是内涵实力，而是身材美貌。 从此长得好看就有优先权，长得普通等一下，长得丑的除非你有钱，不然慢慢等。 从此下一代不再追求品质，而是耐看。 从此人类因比较而自卑，自杀率越来越高。 从此世界不再公平，败坏虚伪。 很悲哀，不是吗...

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Into Pieces (20/1/2016)

The year did not start very good. Seeing today's condition of the country with endless issues and conflicts within, it did not give me a very peaceful year to welcome. I may be counting down with a group of new friends, I may be laughing, but none of those assured us all that this year's gonna be good. Grandpa passed away on the 12th of January, I headed back to Johor with my family for his funeral. To be really honest with myself I did not have too deep a grief, considering that my memories of him were back when I was very little. However as I was physically there for his funeral, I was swelled with emotions. Partly for...

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追梦？

Another beautiful morning I wake up to! Le boyfriend never fails to make my day better with his morning call every time. Good morning guys :) This post was supposed to be way earlier, just that every time it's either the atmosphere that is not right or the timing. Also, I actually started this post with chinese BUT my brain and fingers didn't seem to cooperate very well. Lol This post is mainly about my experience performing in MMU for the first time, with dear Fresh Bottle mates. Fresh Bottle has always been in my head since I entered...

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