追梦？

Another beautiful morning I wake up to! Le boyfriend never fails to make my day better with his morning call every time. Good morning guys :) This post was supposed to be way earlier, just that every time it's either the atmosphere that is not right or the timing. Also, I actually started this post with chinese BUT my brain and fingers didn't seem to cooperate very well. Lol This post is mainly about my experience performing in MMU for the first time, with dear Fresh Bottle mates. Fresh Bottle has always been in my head since I entered...

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(18/11/2015) 2nd year already ._.

Guess how time never fails to wake me from my sleep? I'm already in my year 2 now. I really wish I had the time to store my memories here in this blog each time a semester ends. Funny how I always seem like the only one appreciating the moments most of the time. I'm tired of hearing question like 'why do you have to capture this?' Why? because I know when I look back at that particular picture a few years later it would mean so much to me :) Hehe. I'm glad that me and my housemates are getting along pretty well. It's about 8 months living under the same roof with them, even after a month of break, everything still resumes...

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(21/10/2015) Sem Break!

Life's getting exciting! I've been singing for weddings with my partner. I've been doing good in my major classes. My first year in MMU as a degree student has just ended. I've made it into Fresh Bottle performance team. I've been recognized for my talent. I just had my glasses changed. I've been earning my own pocket money. I've been handling group assignments pretty well. I've been making new friends. I've been trying out new experience like emcee-ing for events. I had my first promoter job few days back and it went smoothly. I've...

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(10/8/2015) 近况

好久没有发泄了。 最近心情特别沉重，担心的事情也随着时间有增无减。 已经来到第三个学期的Week7，再多7个星期，我就得告别First Year了。 上个星期是我两年以来最压力最伤肝的一个星期。原因是因为有两个Major assignment的submission，搞得我三天三夜才睡了少过10个小时，严重缺眠。除了课业还要担心表演的准备，加上感情出了少少问题，更让我精神不佳，变本加厉。少了倾诉对象，少了对我嘘寒问暖的人，我除了缺眠还要加上失眠的痛。当一切都在同一时间发生时，那种煎熬的程度，不是开玩笑的。 现在一切也告一段落，功课做得还满意，和他和好了，周末表演也圆满结束，蛮欣赏自己的坚强，熬着熬着就熬过来咯。 感谢主啦 (: 虽然这个星期少了一半的忧虑，可是感觉我还没完全恢复正常。睡眠还没调整，身体需要补一补，精神需要支柱。 好多事情都变了，当你习惯依赖一个人，突然他不再关心一切，你就得学会一个人面对。没有什么大不了的。 在乎的人不会就这样离开，不在乎的怎么强逼也只会弄巧反拙。 我以为我长大了，原来还是个小朋友，需要被呵护，需要有人疼爱。 多么的不安，多么不开心，也得自娱。 掉了多少眼泪，心闷了多久，最终也没说出口。 一个星期7天，其中5天在8位室友的吵嚷声中度过，确实得了不少欢乐。 至少那个时刻我能暂时放下包袱，开怀大笑，哪怕只有一小段的时间。 就这样，烦恼中穿插着他们带给我的轻松，一天一天的过去了。 无论...

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The power of prayer.

Many months ago when I was still serving as a children church teacher, I would always tell my kids how prayer always worked miraculously throughout my life. Until my faith faded. I remember how I would encourage people to pray for the slightest matter in their daily lives because I used to believe that God doesn't only answer big and passionate prayers but also insignificant ones. However I still lost it myself. Recently as I'm working my best to come close once again to Him, I started seeing small things that God showed me. Little...

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Ever Sincere

I have a small test tomorrow morning at 9am. I haven't started studying yet. Lol God knows where my confidence comes from haha.  Just now after I took my shower, I came out of the bathroom like usual and started drying my hair. Strangely, I started talking to myself. Usually the voice remains in my head but this time, I just talked like I was talking to a person for real while it was empty in the room. As creepy as it may sound, it led me to an ever sincere prayer to God. After so long. With tears rolling in my eyes, with a brokenhearted, and a confused mind, I talked to God. I'm sure He heard me. I'm sure He did....

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Dilemma

Ohaiyo! It's Labor Day and it's Friday. Sunday's Wesak, therefore Monday's a holiday. Tuesday has no class, so to conclude, I'm having a 5-day-rest HOOORAY! However I'm facing a dilemma. I'm soo excited to be home since I haven't been spending enough time with my family. Also like I said since I have a 5-day-rest, I thought i should start on some project to polish my skill before it rots. Yeah I can always do it at home while being there for my family BUT, my pc is in Cyber and everything I need for my project is all here AANND...

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Alone

Now that I'm always surrounded by people, I have to appreciate my alone time more. I'm still adapting to this change, I almost never have time to myself anymore lol. Usually I would follow the gang to lunch after our morning class. Head home, get a power nap, and head back campus for afternoon class. Today's a lil different. I decided not to join them. Speaking of that, thou, they were kind enough to send me home instead of letting me walk. Joey is touched! ((: Anyway point isn't so much on the meal, but the chance to be home alone. Along my growing-up path, I've come to learn the importance of self-reflection. I used...

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Ex-Strangers

From strangers to course-mates. From course-mates to housemates. I have just moved in with 8 of them to a new apartment, reason was because the management of the previous apartment was a torture. Well I can't really say that cause I was one of them who refused to register for their resident card. *guilty* For some reason they blocked a few entrance and we had to walk one whole round to get to campus. Long story short, they gave us much nightmares. So did us. However it may turn out, I moved here for a few reasons. I struggled...

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Lovehate to Caffeine

First up, to all the coffee lovers out there, lemme stir your senses with this. Grrrr don't they look tempting?? I used to have phobia to the smell of coffee when I was little. I gave the same twist on my face when I sniff alcohol back then. Who would have guessed that later it became the love of my life? When it comes to coffee, I put myself in dilemma most of the times. Here's why. Caffeine. Whoever that invented it was a genius nyahah. As we grow older our taste buds change, and that only happened recently when...

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Self-esteem

The thing is, I never really know me myself. Yes I have very low self esteem. At times I thought I have overcome it but when criticism comes, I indulge in self-pity again. Reason? Because I don't understand myself. O.O Have you ever come across situations where you are sooo down at one point you hated yourself so much you wish you were somebody else? I have, countless of times ahaha. One of the biggest downfall of me is that I follow too much of what people say. In short I just care too much of being the girl people wants me to be,...

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I'm back blogging yey (:

The thought of creating a new blog has been swirling in my mind for quite a long time now. Well since I have more time now I thought I would. Lol my time management is still bad, struggling since years back and still struggling, ahah. I'm pretty bad with consistency(too), therefore I hardly accomplish big goals. It's sad really. But considering that I managed to maintain a blog for 5 years? Maybe not that bad. ;) If you do not know my old blog it's fine, old stories already. I stopped blogging for a year till now, and here I am again yey ;D No more long posts and grandmother stories I promise. Short and sweet, like no...

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