What was it? (04/04/2016)

Hey it's me again.

It's 2:55 a.m.

I can't sleep.

I'm not sure if this is caused by the weather or the caffeine or just me over-thinking.

First of all the weather is definitely the killer. Everyone in my house knows that whoever has the fan on at speed 3 and above would get killed (lol just a mom thing). Right now I have it at speed 4 and I am friggin' sweating God help meeeeeee..

Second of all I was out in the evening with mom and before we headed home, we had coffee at her favourite restaurant. There it explains my insomnia but it was like 8 hours ago? That strong ke?

Last but not least it's the time of the month again. I'm pretty hot-tempered these few days plus insensitive boyfriend (haihs lol) plus aloooooot of things that made me wanna scream so much (yes it's the time of the month again) so yah I couldn't sleep with many things running in my head.

I don't know man. Perhaps all three just happened to campur together and got me jumping out from bed blogging.

Meanwhile some recent photos with famfam :)

Had dinner at Daorae Restaurant.

And I figured Korean food really isn't my thing.

They just don't go well with my taste buds. Yeah that's about it.

No more korean food unless I have to lol.

Annnnnnnd a selfie of mine last Saturday.

I'm back on schedule.

It feels good to be back serving.

Till next time buhbye!

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Just after Dawn (02/04/2016)

Good morning, it is 6:40 am according to my pc time.

I woke up an hour ago and stayed in bed for awhile, and then I got up to pee and here I am sitting in front of my desktop in the dark, with only a dim light from the screen of my desktop and the light of my phone on the keyboard.

Before the pee, I took a moment of my half asleep conscious to just stare into the darkness. Since my door knob never worked, my room door is never locked, so I have gotten used to my door always being pushed open by the wind and usually really annoys me. Well it was half open just now and I could have a little view of the hallway. It was so dark. And I liked it. It was so silent. It was so..silent.

I started imagining myself in a big field with a total darkness, maybe a little light source from the lamp pole in the distance. I started making artworks in my head, picturing the scenes I always dream about, the peacefulness you find in a total silence, maybe the moon as my companion as well.

I couldn't draw early at this hour, so I had to write down these beautiful moment. These are the times when my mental state is emotional. I always enjoy indulging myself in this little beautiful world my brain has been creating all these while. I am all alone. I have my time to myself. The very moment where I wish I could disappear from the reality and get lost in my imaginary world.

It's 7:00 am sharp. The sun is rising, it is breaking my darkness for good.

Time to get back. Hmm maybe I should draw.  :)

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